Crying In The Dark

*Trigger Warning

Nowadays it seems like my eyes are always ready to spill
Overfilled with this sadness
Even though at times I smile
I feel a deep giggle that steals away some time
I’m still not fine
It’s maddening
Why don’t I feel happiness
On a pursuit through life learning from past mistakes trying to do the correct thing this time
My tears stream for miles
I like to think that my melancholy rain drop ocean carries a boat so that it could sail to find a dryer climate
Most days I close my eyes hoping that my despair will disappear
But it doesn’t
The rain keeps coming
No matter how many times I squeeze my eyes tight and hold my head up they always creep out and slide down the sides of my face
My sadness always knows how to escape when I am trying to evade weighing down on someone else for awhile
I just rather be alone
Alone in the darkness that I am feeling
Tears are silent when the light never reveals them
Nowadays it seems that my eyes always spilling

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Shan Bae

My name is Shan Bae. I am a 25 year old artist and creative writer from Kansas City, MO. I am also the small business owner of Insaei Healing which translates into True Healing. I hand make jewelry using gemstones that have the ability to help aid in the healing of the chakras in the human body. I am also a Reiki Energy Healer and I use this powerful energy source to charge the gemstones in my jewelry. For more information or to purchase a choker please head over to I am open to connect and network with people who are interested in working with me. I would love to collaborate with other poets or bloggers. You are always welcome to send me a message via the “send a love letter” page on my blog. Send inquiries to:

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