Delusional Illusions

For months I evaded your illusion by creating my own
I waded in the fields of all my happiness
I fed myself beautiful poems filled with loving words
I scattered rose petals at my own feet
Worshipped the goddess that was in me
Sowing seeds deep beneath my own weeds
Gardening my bed full of roses
Lying bare and open allowing the vulnerable parts of me to flow in the way they did before this
I could see that I was broken
Tears falling caught in the depths of my emoceans
Drowning in the waves of my distorted torment
An end to an illusion, a wall that kept my garden from growing
You kept my freedom imprisoned
A prisoner in your dungeon
Bars of lies and a system of manipulation
My illusion was just a delusion painted over your pain
My lover’s creation

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Shan Bae

My name is Shan Bae. I am a 25 year old artist and creative writer from Kansas City, MO. I am also the small business owner of Insaei Healing which translates into True Healing. I hand make jewelry using gemstones that have the ability to help aid in the healing of the chakras in the human body. I am also a Reiki Energy Healer and I use this powerful energy source to charge the gemstones in my jewelry. For more information or to purchase a choker please head over to I am open to connect and network with people who are interested in working with me. I would love to collaborate with other poets or bloggers. You are always welcome to send me a message via the “send a love letter” page on my blog. Send inquiries to:

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