I spent my time adjusting my young restless mind on catering to you

Each step was two steps back

I let you abuse my self-esteemI was so broken

No one was there but him

Never telling me more than what needed to be said

I understood the agreement

I gave to him my indiscretions to distract me from my pain

Reinvented my chains and bounds from us into something other than what I thought was love

The passion in the dark opened my eyes and turned me towards what was in the light

My heart was more than something for you to taunt me with

You pulled me in and I could feel every emotion I was evading

Trusting the deception that has my heart second guessing not only love but my reflection

Watching myself fade away in his darkness

My psyche collapsing in the temptation of something new

Walking away with a thousand thoughts of how I will be back

Calmly accepting the events that transpired and the consequences that are to follow

Split in two and I let the darkness consume what little of me I had left

Aware of the thoughts sailing through my mind

Euphorically erupting into this calming sea of satisfaction

I no longer felt the pain of waiting for you


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Shan Bae

My name is Shan Bae. I am a 25 year old artist and creative writer from Kansas City, MO. I am also the small business owner of Insaei Healing which translates into True Healing. I hand make jewelry using gemstones that have the ability to help aid in the healing of the chakras in the human body. I am also a Reiki Energy Healer and I use this powerful energy source to charge the gemstones in my jewelry. For more information or to purchase a choker please head over to http://insaeihealingshop.com. I am open to connect and network with people who are interested in working with me. I would love to collaborate with other poets or bloggers. You are always welcome to send me a message via the “send a love letter” page on my blog. Send inquiries to: contact@shanbae.com

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